Taking a Turn

This blog was originally started to chart and discuss what is was like to have type 1 diabetes and be pregnant, well if you have read earlier posts you know, we lost our baby (little girl, we named Anna) and we have been unable to become pregnant again. So the blog is taking a turn...

Living with Type 1 Diabetes is quite an adventure. Wether pregnant or not! Every day/ minute is something new. Not only for me (Emily) but for my husband and my extended family. So let the adventures in Type 1 diabetes again!

something worth saying...

"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." C.S. Lewis

Sad News

We had our first sonogram yesterday. We are at the 10 week mark. The baby does not have a heart beat. Also the more they looked around, they noticed 3 cysts in the uterus with the baby. I have not even begun to miscarry yet and it could take a few weeks so I am scheduled for a DNC this Friday to have everything removed and cleaned out. We have decided with my diabetes this is probably the quickest and safest way to recover. Then our doctor advised us to wait a few months, have a few good periods and we can try again.

We are, of course, heart broken over this loss but we also know we have a good God who loves us and the baby deeply. He is in control.

Thank you all who have traveled this 10 week journey with us. I will write again after the D&C and let you all know how it goes.

Morning sickness more like ALL DAY SICKNESS!

Blah! Ok so whoever came up with the phrase morning sickness has never experienced it. It may start in the morning but it is an all day event. I hate to complain, many women have had it way rougher than me. Like Mary, the mother of Jesus. I cant imagine being pregnant and giving birth in the circumstances she did.

I bought my first pair of maternity jeans. They are the most comfortable pair of jeans I have ever worn.

The baby is the size of an olive this week but lets not talk about it. I may vomit.

Where has my brain gone?

Well it has been quite a weekend. Scott and I kept our niece, which was so fun. But I also lost a few things and forgot a few things and have gotten clumsy.

It started with me telling my dear friend, Olivia, that something cost $30 more dollars that it actually did. Then I lost my cell phone somewhere between my driveway and my house, and it has disappeared for good. Then after church on Sunday I dumped a cup of water all over myself in the car. And thats just to name a few!

I like this...I hate that

I enjoy answering questions about diabetes. I like people not assuming things and wanting to be informed BUT I do not like when people try to make light of things. For example:

Random person: "Emily, do you have to do anything special being pregnant and having diabetes?"

Emily: "Well its like any other pregnant women with a few additional things. Stricter diet, more doctors and more appointments, higher risk of complications."

Random person: "Oh well, at least you are use to some of that, you know the diet and doctors appointments."

DONT DO THAT! Here is a piece of advice for anyone dealing with someone who has an incurable disease (or at least dealing with me). Do not try to make light of what they are dealing with or make it sound not so bad. This is in no way helpful - at least not for me.

Most of us do not want pity but we also don't want you to minimize so instead just say "I am so sorry." or  "I will be praying for you" or "Let me know if I can help in anyway."

If you say you will pray though - you better do it.

Ok, now that is out of my system. We are now in week 8 - baby is the size of a Raspberry!

Diet Coke!

This morning Scott and I saw the doctor for the first time. It is still too early to do a sonogram but we did get to have some questions answered and set up our next appointment and set up an appointment to meet with the fetal-maternal medicine doctors. The biggest update we got this morning is that I can have artificial sweetners, which means Diet Coke is back in my life!

Of course, I need to only drink it in moderation and if I can find caffeine free that is the best decision but at least I have it back! I have missed it.